Xtreme RAW thoughts from Chelle ~ uncensored
I write from my soul. I don't know any other way to write. I focus on these genres – biographical, philosophical, commentary, romance, living with ADHD, having extreme anxiety and depression, being a victim of drug addiction and recovery and becoming a SURVIVOR OF ADDICTION, being a victim of Domestic Violence and becoming a SURVIVOR OF DV, and living through and SURVIVING Maternal Narcissistic abuse! Not too mention that I have the world's most AMAZING PARTNER that I write a lot about! I hope that through all my posts, you realize that YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There is someone who cares! God bless each of you! PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS and FOLLOW ME! Thank you so much …
… I was told I couldn’t possibly care about them or myself either or else I would “stop this craziness right away”.
I knew it wasn’t true, because I wanted so bad to be loved by them and to show them I could love them and be good at the same time. I did love them but they couldn’t see that through my emotional shortcomings …
… People just don’t get how damn hard that was for me. I missed him so terribly every single day, I missed him. I never stopped moving around for long because I would start thinking about him if I did and I would break down …
God had already been working on my son’s behalf. I didn’t care about myself, I just was to be sure that he was going to be taken care of while my gut cringed up painfully, with the thought of being away from him. I cannot find the words to tell you how dark and alone I felt, not to mention what a worthless piece of crap I was for allowing this to happen to us.
Acceptance … The acceptanceof all myproblemson this very dayand at this very time …Because it’s notjust aboutthe hardestuphill climb … Acceptance … It’s difficultto graspthat I sometimesjust get distressedbecause ofcertain factorsin my life …Some person,place or situationI’m findingunacceptableto meAll it iscausing isa whole lotof inside strife … Acceptance … No serenityfor meuntil I acceptthe person,placeContinue reading “Acceptance on Life’s Terms”
Scattered thoughts, Gleefully running Intense flashes Tiptoeing around, quietly running, away from the scrutinizing eye. I can see each thought yet they won’t slow down long enough in order for me to look at them, To see what they are. Crashing isn’t far … hyper isn’t far … Finally, Smoke, swirling around each thought separatelyContinue reading “Endless Thoughts …”
Noone else can respect you, if you do not respect yourself.
So show respect for yourself and people will notice and feel it from your very character that emulates from your soul ❤️
You will find her dancing with the demons of addiction, heartbreak and pain – they know you will eventually give in to their strong demands once again – while you falsely think that they accept you – yet really they do not –
… that’s just get you hooked so they are able to harass you relentlessly – down that vile path that you tried so hard to adopt … because by then – they are laughing at you – watching you – as you realize in horror –
THAT YOU’RE UNABLE TO STOP …
… narcissists don’t have one ounce of good … so now I no longer care if she acknowledged me back then or not … I was completely blown over when shown what she was … that day not very easily forgot …
… Braving myself for a painfuL emotional jaunt … which continuously … scattered the shredded pieces of my heart … floating through memories of before when my heart was young …
It was through the desire of wanting to get to know myself that led me to the fact of needing to forgive myself. It was through that forgiveness, that I came to accept myself. Lastly, it was through that acceptance, that I was able to FINALLY truly love myself, unconditionally.
… dedicated to my amazing son who is graduating 🎓 this month and the tragedy he faced that triggered this domino effect sending the two of us on separate journey’s 🚶 through the obstacles my son pushed forward 🏃even after his fathers sad and heartbreaking 🕺 unexpected death 👤 still he pressed on 👲 until the present day TRIUMPH of graduating high school 👩🚒 This poem focuses on how this bittersweet victory showing how raw determination 🎓 true love 🙏 prayer 🌪️ and heartache can anchor inside your soul 👩🎓 driving you to succeed 🙏 against all odds 🎓
Cowards have radar for weakness and they use it to zone in on those that have some weakness BUT it’s not your fault if you fall for their lies ~ the first time! It takes getting burned a few times before you get good at spoting those types when you first met them.
How are you supposed to automatically know, unless your told or shown?
… Sadness always tries to overwhelm my soul, because you see … I’m now finally becoming me. The me I was always supposed to be …
It’s work to remain positive and to keep that passion burning bright! But you can’t give up …
I give myself peptalks all of the time, just to keep myself from falling in that hideous trap of lying thoughts and feelings…
It’s easy to think of certain feelings or thoughts as bad for us and we naturally want to make them stop. We avoid them, we distract ourselves, and then we ultimately try to fix these “broken” parts of our lives……..
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I write from my soul. I don't know any other way to write. I focus on these genres - biographical, philosophical, commentary, romance, living with ADHD, having extreme anxiety and depression, being a victim of drug addiction and recovery and becoming a SURVIVOR OF ADDICTION, being a victim of Domestic Violence and becoming a SURVIVOR OF DV, and living through and SURVIVING Maternal Narcissistic abuse! Not too mention that I have the world's most AMAZING PARTNER that I write a lot about! I hope that through all my posts, you realize that YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There is someone who cares! God bless each of you! PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS and FOLLOW ME! Thank you so much ...
I write from my soul. I don't know any other way to write. I focus on these genres - biographical, philosophical, commentary, romance, living with ADHD, having extreme anxiety and depression, being a victim of drug addiction and recovery and becoming a SURVIVOR OF ADDICTION, being a victim of Domestic Violence and becoming a SURVIVOR OF DV, and living through maternal narcissistic abuse. I hope that through all my posts, someone realizes they're NOT ALONE! There is someone who cares. God bless each of you! PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS and FOLLOW ME!
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Xtreme RAW thoughts from Chelle ~ uncensored