Speculating Inside

Deep inside thoughtsRampaging through my brain …Darting here, thereand everywhereWanting to stopthem, yet they pull my chain … Stopping those recollectionshowever they won’t halt …Insurmountable emotionsCascade through my bodyWithering down, as I realizethey are my own fault … Ping pong reflectionsBouncing all aroundmy mind …Holding them downto see what theyhave to sayis what I will

Endless Thoughts …

Scattered thoughts, Gleefully running Intense flashes Tiptoeing around, quietly running, away from the scrutinizing eye. I can see each thought yet they won’t slow down long enough in order for me to look at them, To see what they are. Crashing isn’t far … hyper isn’t far … Finally, Smoke, swirling around each thought separately

🎸 rOCk candy QUEEN

You will find her dancing with the demons of addiction, heartbreak and pain – they know you will eventually give in to their strong demands once again – while you falsely think that they accept you – yet really they do not – … that’s just get you hooked so they are able to harass

… the unknown …

… If I just KNEW, it wouldn’t be the UNKNOWN …

Perpetual madness of the mind

Heinous taunts come from the thoughts that aren’t mine, making this world seem unfeeling, not giving me any consolation. Making me stay in this miserable place. No matter how I fight, I cannot leave …

🎸 rOCk candy QUEEN

You will find her dancing with the demons of addiction, heartbreak and pain – they know you will eventually give in to their strong demands once again – while you falsely think that they accept you – yet really they do not –

… that’s just get you hooked so they are able to harass you relentlessly – down that vile path that you tried so hard to adopt … because by then – they are laughing at you – watching you – as you realize in horror –

THAT YOU’RE UNABLE TO STOP …

💔 mommy dearest 💔

… narcissists don’t have one ounce of good … so now I no longer care if she acknowledged me back then or not … I was completely blown over when shown what she was … that day not very easily forgot …

💧memories … roll down my cheeks💧

… dedicated to my amazing son who is graduating 🎓 this month and the tragedy he faced that triggered this domino effect sending the two of us on separate journey’s 🚶 through the obstacles my son pushed forward 🏃even after his fathers sad and heartbreaking 🕺 unexpected death 👤 still he pressed on 👲 until the present day TRIUMPH of graduating high school 👩‍🚒 This poem focuses on how this bittersweet victory showing how raw determination 🎓 true love 🙏 prayer 🌪️ and heartache can anchor inside your soul 👩‍🎓 driving you to succeed 🙏 against all odds 🎓

What makes someone tick who has an ugly and hateful heart? 💓

Cowards have radar for weakness and they use it to zone in on those that have some weakness BUT it’s not your fault if you fall for their lies ~ the first time! It takes getting burned a few times before you get good at spoting those types when you first met them.

How are you supposed to automatically know, unless your told or shown?

ZERO tolerance for STUPIDITY

… Take notes and know that they are INSIGNIFICANT in your life, they deserve no kindness from you (others can minister to this one), because that’s what I gave and that turned them against me …

remembering alone

… Sadness always tries to overwhelm my soul, because you see … I’m now finally becoming me. The me I was always supposed to be …