The tears are not going to stop, they are running down my face.
My soul cringes,
knowing the tears will make the thoughts come alive.
Forever searching inside,
grabbing myself from deep inside
trying to hold it back
The need for reassurance is there
I must share my head with you,
it’s a must, guessing is not an option
Understand that it hurts
when you flippantly tell me that it’s none of my business…
try to “see” where I’m coming from,
Put your head where mine rests… Being afraid that one day you will say…
I’m hanging out with a new friend.
Crushed beyond reason is what I’d be
If that were to happen.
That’s why all you have to do is tell me
where your head is, because guessing is dangerous for me.
I need your honesty, not your anger,
Your acceptance, not your mean words….
Your understanding, not your condemnation.
Your reassurance, not your rude comebacks…
Because those are so unlike you… You are defensive for no reason,
Haven’t I earned
That much respect, and
haven’t I been true in our best friendship thus far?
It’s not you reporting, it’s simply YOU being kind to the one who is kind to you.
Reassurance would stop it all…
Please don’t keep it from me….
It’s not me trying to control you, it is YOU being
considerate of your bfwb…
that needs to be told, gently, that
No one is taking her place.
Reassurance would stop it all…
Those thoughts…
Dead in their tracks.
I don’t get why you won’t do that
just to help,
To make it easier…
Especially bc I’m trying very hard
To continue to trust.
Don’t make me pay with tears
because you know how much I care.
My heart is pretty fragile
but you think it’s made of steel…
It’s hard when negative
Enters in,
To continue to trust …. while reassurance would
Be so welcomed for needed peace,
Inside my heart.
What would it really hurt?
To tell me what’s up?
If you know how I mean it…
It’s for reassuring comfort, deep down inside me.
Other posts about my bffwb:
Where does the love go
NEVERLAND for mature
readers
The imprint of you on my heart
I hope you find what you need to be happy again.
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I’m happy today, in spite of emotions I struggle with at times. There are several more posts that I wrote “in tha moment”and have to do with my bfwb’s.
Thanks for reading and I hope you will follow my blog!!
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Light and darkness is something everyone faces. Darkness does bring trouble, doubt, hate. Always go toward the light.
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Yes your right!! Thank you for reading and I hope you will follow my blog!!!
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Beautiful. The reassurance within your heart is something I hope you find soon xo
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I have the reassurance in my heart, deep down, but negative thoughts (due to ADHD unmedicated) will always bombard me. I fight those daily bc I know they are wrong.
Read my post titled:
Inside the tornado.. Thoughts lie…
https://wp.me/paI9nk-5b
Let me know your thoughts on this! I appreciate your time!!!
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